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The Broken Heart of God |
I
would like to tell you a story. This
tale is not all from the Scriptures, but it is scriptural. It did not originate with me I have just
rewritten it. I am not sure who first
told it, but I believe ultimately it came straight from heart of God.
Lord, How
Can I?
The
Lord came to Hosea, a prophet of God, bound and determined to glorify the
Almighty; ...Go, take yourself a wife of harlotry and have children of harlotry; for
the land commits flagrant harlotry, forsaking the Lord (Hosea 1;2b NASB). “Lord”, exclaimed Hosea; “How can a man of
God marry a prostitute?” To be sure this was God speaking, but how can
God ask me to join myself with such sin, Hosea thought to himself. Strangely, he felt a pulsating love in his
heart for this woman, Gomer. He was not sure
if this was good or bad. I don’t understand but I must obey Him,
Hosea decided.
The Marriage
The first years were happy ones. Hosea was very affectionate and Gomer
reciprocated. Their first child was born
and the Lord directed he be named, Jezreel.
He was to be a sign of retribution to the nation.
A
rift started to come into their marriage.
Hosea noticed that other men were showing her increasing attention. Quick looks and coy glances were becoming
evident as Gomer’s beauty was proving to be a snare to her. She kept it veiled, but her expressions and
body language communicated she enjoyed the attention. What must I do, Hosea contemplated. He concluded that the only thing he could do
was to pray.
Their
second child was born, this time a girl.
A haunting question started to arise in Hosea’s thoughts. Was she his?
The Lord said to call her Lo-ruhama
(Hosea 1:6), unloved or no compassion. His fears only continued to mount. When Lo-ruhamah was weaned a third child was
born. The Lord directed he be named
Lo-ammi (Hosea 1:9), literally, not my people or no kin of mine. Hosea could not deny it. He was not his son. He was stunned and dazed as his worse fears
had become a reality. She had left his
love for another’s lust.
The Look on
Her Face Pierced His Heart
“Oh Lord, what do I do”, Hosea cried? He still had an unquenchable love for his
wife but as a man of God he could not be in companionship with sin. Even though he felt as if his heart is was being
toward apart, he knew what he must do.
“You must turn from your lovers and be true to me”, Hosea pleaded. With a breaking heart he gazed into the eyes
of the one he loved, and waited trembling.
Like a drowning man searching for lifeline, he grasped for a sign of
repentance. She raised her head and looked into his eyes. The look of indifference on her face was like
a dagger going into his heart. Finally,
there was a one-word reply, an emotionless, no!
Crushed
in grief, he sought vainly to hold back the tears. He sat quietly and listened to her gathering
up her things to leave him. He heard the
door open and then close and the sound of her fading footsteps. He had an almost overpowering impulse to stop
her. But no, love to be true must be
holy. Finally, though straining to hear
them, the sound of her footsteps were gone.
He waited for a time in silence, hoping against hope that she would
reconsider and return to him.
Eventually, loneliness crept over him.
He burst into tears.
With
tears still in his eyes, the children came into the room. “Where is mama”, they asked? “Why did she leave?” He had no answer. At the supper table that night there was a
conspicuous empty place. Lo-ruhama
cried, “I want my mama.” Hosea wanted
to cry with her. But he must not give
way before his children. They gathered
for evening prayers; “take care of Mama and bring her home safely”, they prayed
with faltering lips.
The Cry of
a Broken-Hearted God
Later that night he tucked his children in bed
and soon they were sound asleep. He walked
into the next room and threw himself down and gave way to his grief. He sobbed out the sorrow of his soul. “This
cross of suffering you have given to me, oh Lord, seems unbearable”, he
lamented. Anguish passed into bitter
agony and out of dark despair he cried, “Oh God, why”? The answer came in an unexpected manner. Worn out from weeping, he sat and stared into
space. He heard the sound of weeping and
turned his head to listen. His children
were asleep. Who could this be? Then
came some words. How can I give you up, O Ephraim?
How can I surrender you, O Israel (Hosea 11:8 NASB)? That night Hosea learned he did not
suffer alone. The voice he heard was the
cry of a broken-hearted God sorrowing over the sins of His people. As Gomer had rejected Hosea’s love, Israel
had been untrue to her God. Hosea was
experiencing the fellowship of God’s suffering. That night he learned that without suffering
there is no love and as a prophet, you can’t give away what you don’t
have. A message was born in Hosea’s
heart; there is an awful price of suffering in the heart of God and love must
and will find a way.
God’s All
Pursuing Love
As time when on, one day Hosea was praying. A voice spoke, “Go again, love a woman who
is loved by her husband, yet an
adulteress....” (Hosea 3:1 NASB). It
was the same voice that spoke to him years ago to take a wife. To be sure it was God’s voice.
The
next morning he walked down the same road that Gomer had walked months
before. He came to the city of
Bethel. He proceeded through nice
section of the city and into the slums. He found his way into the slave market.
He caught a glimpse of a girl. Was this Gomer? He starred at her, hardly recognizing his
own wife. Sin had taken its toll. With a pounding heart he purchased her. He bought her for fifteen pieces of silver
and a homer and a half of barley (v. 3:2).
She held her head in shame. She
had sold her soul to sin and had ended up in bondage to the slave master. In spite of all her waywardness her husband
was redeeming her. Can this really be
happening, she wonders.
They
turned and started their trip home. They
walked along silently. Then Hosea spoke,
“I love you. Every day I have longed for
you. My heart has never lost its love
for you and not once did I give up hope that you would return. All the past is forgiven and we will never
speak of it again. You must stay with me and never be untrue
again.
She
saw their little house in the distant.
What once had been so confining now looked inviting. As they entered the house, it looked so good
compared to the slave market. Suddenly
Gomer saw herself as she really was. She
saw the awfulness of sin. “God, how
could I have been so selfish, only thinking about myself? Lord, please forgive me” she pleaded. After all I have done, could God ever forgive
me.
Hosea had, she thought. All of a
sudden, like a burst of light from heaven, a thought invaded her mind. God’s heart of forgiveness had already been
offered to her through the love of her husband.
Hosea had done only what he saw God already doing. Mercy was God’s idea
and Hosea was just the messenger. She looked up to heaven with a radiant smile
through tears of joy and received that forgiveness. God’s all pursuing love had found a way.
To All The
Broken-hearted
Some of you reading this story have
experienced, like Hosea, the fellowship of Christ’s suffering. This story is for you. I must tell all of
you, that you have never cried alone.
God has counted every tear and has collected them in his bottle of
remembrance. God is birthing a message
in your heart. Without suffering there
is no love. And love must and will find
a way.
How
can we, His creation, reject this kind of love?
But, like Gomer, we do. Yet, God
just keeps on loving.
Endnotes
1. I first heard this story told by Don
Stephens, founder of Mercy Ships.
2. Some who read a story like this feel that it
may humanize God. Ravi Zacharias has said when addressing the nature of God;
“He is a self-sufficient God who has no lack.”
God does not need anybody or anything.
He is complete in Himself. He’s
God. But the Bible records that at times
God is sad, he is grieved; he is angry, or joyous. We are made in His image therefore we have
these same emotions. But there is a
difference between God’s sadness and ours.
When we are rejected we are sad and hurt because we have lost. Lost a relationship, lost respect, fair
treatment, etc. When God is rejected, He
is sad, not because He has lost (remember He self-sufficient), but because He
knows that without Him we have lost. His
love, unlike ours, is perfect, not self-centered. It’s unconditional, always
seeking our best.
In
writing this story, it was not my purpose to make God more like us, but help us
to be more like God.